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I'm slowly drowning, and I've forgotten how to swim. As the dark waters envelop me, I try to escape. I try to fight and free myself. My watery jail starts to imprison me. I reach up, and clench the cold water. All oxygen gone, I make one last feeble attempt to hold on to the sanity that I never truly had. The same sanity that I chased after for years escape me, once again. I struggle, reaching and grabbing it, succeeding only in grabbing the dark tomb that surrounds me now. One breath of the dark air, and one more reach for the sanity that I long for, and the dark jail imprisons me forever.

I could be criticized for how I handled things. They can say I'm wrong, that I moved too fast. But I'm truly happy. Call me selfish, but that's my main concern. Call me childish but the world still revolves around me and my happiness. I am the most important and I will put myself first. So don't point your hatred and your hurt toward me. The first cut may be deepest, but the second went in just as deep. I may have cut you badly, but you made the first cut. You hurt me first. So the sob story of how much I hurt you does not bother me. Rewind to the time when I didn't want to move. When I wanted to just lay down and

I wish I could talk to you and tell you that I shouldn't have. That everything was a mistake. The thoughts going through my head all about you should not have been there. I shouldn't have go on and played along with your game. I should have stopped and went away from you. I should have told you to stop. But I didn't stop you. I fed into your game, and played along with you. And nothing changed in me. I still want you. I didn't get it out of my system. Now I just want more of you. I can be called crazy, but I don't want to let go. You're not mine but I want you to be. I want your words to be a reality. I want to tell you

I get lost everytime I look into your blue eyes The butterflies in my stomach takes me by surprise I know I shouldn't think about you this way. I can't help it, you've been on my mind all day. I sneak a peek when I think you're not looking at me I blush and try to turn away before you can see. I know I shouldn't think about you this way I can't help myself, I wish you'd go away. When I look in your blue eyes They take me for a ride. I'm lost and I'm gone lets get away for awhile. When I look in your blue eyes They take me for a ride Come take me for a ride. I try hard not to read too much in what I see Think that you have some

I don't want to talk to you, look at you anymore. I wish you would ignore me so I wouldn't hear your voice or even your laugh. I wouldn't look up to see your smile that I should get so excited just to see. Everything about you just pulls me in. And besides the obvious, that I'm taken by another, I can't think of one reason to stay away from you. That stops any action, but not my thoughts. You run through my mind. And I can't control them. I want them to stop. I want you to go away, at least my mind does. I know it's wrong and I know I shouldn't but I can't stop it. I knew you first and going a different way than I o

I hate you so much. I hate you because I want to be in your arms. I hate you because I want to kiss you and I know it's wrong. I want you to go away, to the point I'm hysterical and I'm close to tears. I hate you because I want to hate you. Nothing would make me happier than to be able to look at you and honestly hate you. But as much as I try I can't force myself to. I can't sleep because I don't want to see you. You haunt and tease me, someone I want but I can't touch. It grows my hatred, and as much as I try, my hatred isn't really there.

I wish you would leave and I'd never have to see you. You won't leave me mentally, so leave me physically. Get far away from me and let me live in peace. I never want to see your face but everyday I sit and wait, waiting for you to turn the corner. That warm feeling fills me up and I start to smile. I want you to go away, to never look at me again never smile at my jokes. To become pointless in my life, as I'm sure I am in yours. But I put myself in a fantasy land and read into what's not there. The signs I see aren't real, yet I spend hours fantisizing, wishing my dream was real. Fantasies run through my mind as I glanc

I'm afraid and excited, lost but so sure of myself. I'm on a new adventure, and you're leading me To this new country, yet we're not leaving this couch. You're bringing me to a new world, but we won't leave this room. Everything I once knew doesn't seem to matter, the knowledge is false. I can look in your eyes, and all I can see is the hazel and blue. When you look in mine, you see my fears, old pain and old tears. You can read me like a book, although I stayed closed before to so many people. But you look to me, and the pages start to turn. My whole life story on display before your eyes. Yet, I don't feel the need

I am a writer with blank pages; a singer who is mute. I am a dancer with no legs; a politician without proof. I am the little sister who no longer looks up; a child with an equal mind. I am the mother without a child; a woman's words that are no so kind. I am the genuine smile perfectly rehearsed; a kindly witch whom she herself has cursed. I am the tiniest of lies when the truth doesn't care; an echoing of lingering goodbyes when no one is there. I am a clock with no hands; a picture with no frame. I am a blind man with The Sight; the runner who was lame. I am the bare winter tree forever reaching for the sky. I am forever t

Yes, I Have A Penis Do not assume (if I hold the door for you), that I am making a statement about your inabilities to open the door for yourself. If you hold it for me, I'll say 'thankyou'. Do not assume (if I pay for the meal), that I am underestimating your earning capacity as a woman. If you invite me out for a meal, you're paying. Do not assume (if I defend your rights), that I am belittling the attempts that you have made to defend your rights yourself. If you defend my rights, I'll consider you human.